6th December 2009
Tony and I attended a memorial service today in London. It was a beautiful service but incredibly moving and we are both feeling rather low. The service was held in a theatre in The Strand and Tony and I parked our car in the car park at the National Theatre and walked across Waterloo Bridge. Tony and I met at the National 26 years ago as my mother ran one of the departments there and I spent many happy years working front of house and also back stage in my mother’s office. Today was certainly a day for reflection and a funny mix of joyful memories as Tony and I reminisced, but marked with incredible sadness at all the losses of the year.
I am not sure how I feel about Christmas approaching. I usually love Christmas but this year so much has changed and I know that the first Christmas without my parents and Tony’s father is of course going to be emotional at times. I am also hideously unprepared as I can’t get into the Christmas spirit at all. I have not been moping about, just incredibly busy and just don’t feel inspired to go Christmas shopping. I am of course looking forward to spending some uninterrupted time with Tony and our daughters but a little of the joy I usually feel has definitely gone this year.
Daisy has been filming in London for the past three weeks but has been struck down with a hideous bug. After the memorial service Tony and I drove down to Surrey to pick her up and take her to film her final scenes. It is a night shoot poor thing and the last thing she feels like doing but she will get through it and the production team will take good care of her.